Pasir Coklat
Friday, September 14, 2012
Photographs
A time capsule
Santa Claus
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
The Lucky One
The mark on my face is so tiny, you can hardly tell it's there. At its worst it was a small pink thing that might adorn the face of an adolescent. The only hint of danger may have been the sharp pain when it was touched, like a tiny angry demon that roared when my finger got too close and occasionally shed tiny tears of blood. It's nearly invisible after the biopsy's beheading, asleep just below my right eye. I don't want to disturb it. I want to leave it alone, but I know it will come back. They always come back.
I know about the puffy scars scalpels leave in their wake, and can already envision the crooked centipede stitch tracks that will meander awkwardly from my puffy black eye around my nose down to the jawbone. I can already see the large gauze pad glued to my cheek with blood and held on with crisscrosses of tape. I can see the shocked stares when I walk by as people wonder what happened to me. And I can feel the slow tickle of pain as the incision comes to life, dulled slightly by ibuprofen and sleep. I miss my mom's fjord blue eyes. I miss her prayers.
An old schoolmate's baby grandson is fighting leukemia; that is infinitely worse. And in the scheme of things, this is nothing. The tiny demon has politely remained on the outside - at least I hope he has. And as far as cancers go this is the little brother, the small bully who just might be knocked out with a single punch.
Sometimes it is not easy to remember how very, very lucky I am.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Costa Rica, Part II
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Don't Cry for Me Costa Rica
On other trips I always packed too much, and unnecessary clothes and shoes became boulders in my bag. Now the sturdy backpack Crystal sent contained only summery clothes and my first bathing suit in years. My chalk-white legs would strike everyone snow blind anyway, so my looks didn’t matter. I even brought medicine, though I had once lived in Indonesia and my blood contains a tiny Statue of Liberty announcing “Give me your parasites and amoebas longing to be free.” Costa Rica is tame in comparison but I obtained the typhoid, tetanus and malaria medicines because Crystal suggested it. I stuffed my passport into a pouch, shrugged on the backpack and became turtle woman, a snail, a trailer with legs. I was ready to go.
I spent an entire night at the SeaTac Aiport using my backpack as a pillow, and the flights did not end. I arrived in Costa Rica three and a half hours before my daughter and knew I would not find her outside in the dark, so I planted myself at the entrance like a barnacle. “What does she look like?” a kind security officer wanted to know. Small, I said, with black hair. “You described everyone here,” he said sadly. Humans swarmed like ants, but I finally spotted my offspring and pounced in for a hug.
We spent the first night at a luxurious Marriott hotel, and I ate my way through the breakfast buffet like a mouse in a cheese factory. We then found Dollar Rent a Car and greeted a quirky four-wheel-drive Suzuki Jimney that was to be our steed for the week. Crystal is a magnificent and fearless driver, but it was hellish getting out of San Jose. There are no road signs and the map lied. Crystal yelled at the road, the traffic and me. She dodged semis and scooters as I, the golden retriever, unhappily balanced a compass on my kneecaps and waited to die.
We finally emerged into brilliant jungles and coffee plantations and sailed gratefully into La Fortuna, where Hotel Pura Vida stood stoutly in the shadow of a purple volcano puffing smoke like a cigar. We joined a tour to Cano Negro National Park near Nicaragua, delighted to allow someone else to drive especially after viewing the unhappy aftermath of a collision between a semi and a horse. We sailed past monkeys and birds. Emerald caimans said cheese for our cameras, and we even saw a bit of a sloth. At least the guide said it was a sloth. It looked like lint to me.
We bade farewell to La Fortuna and drove into the dark through suicidal rabbits and neon frogs that bounced like poisonous marbles. The road narrowed, filled with boulders and seemed to end and we crept back to Los Heroes, an enormous Swiss Chalet that perched incongruously overlooking the jungle. I stood in the dark on the balcony awash in the love calls of monkeys, insects and birds, and we were awakened the next morning by noisy bird feet dancing on the roof. After a glorious breakfast we mounted our steed for the drive to the coast.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Where Am I?
More later.